As someone who has trouble with anxiety, depression, co-dependency and obsessive compulsive disorder, I have been known to worship comfort, quietness and convenience. These represented to me no demands nor responsibility, the chance to relax and enjoy some peace of mind for a change.
Don’t get me wrong, I do work hard, but that was part of the problem - I never thought I worked hard enough, because if I did, why was I still feeling anxious? I should be able to enjoy the fruits of my labor immediately, right??? So when I was not doing something I was thinking or talking (obsessing) about the “more” I could or should do, to give me a sense of getting something done. Alternately, I would complain that I could not just “be.” I did not know how to actually relax and be in the present moment. I admired relaxation from afar, thinking that it meant doing nothing and being okay with that. And it was a luxury I thought I could not afford. I felt guilty for even wanting to relax! It was a no-win.
Bright Tomorrows is helping to train me in, among other things, how to be still. Part of overcoming OCD is to go ahead and feel the anxious feeling without reacting to them. The feelings do fade!! With regular meetings, conversation with others in similar situations, and personal time with my Creator, I can overcome this and be well.
To be at peace and relaxed now means to choose to think about what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely and admirable (Philippians 4:8) even in the midst of severe trials. It does involve time and effort, but I don’t have to contrive the outcome. This way I can be proactive about what God wants me to do, instead of worrying about all the things I am not doing. Thank God!